The tears have been coming easily this week…
* Jared and I watched “The Help” this week, while my parents babysat Lily, and I found it really moving. We’ve watched quite a few movies lately that reflect real-life violence (Kite Runner, Of Gods and Men, and now The Help) and I’m feeling a bit weighed down by the fear, violence, disparity and injustice in the world… (but would highly recommend all of them!)
* As we dropped my parents off at the airport, Lily was crying and obviously sad to say goodbye, which made me sad for her (and brought tears.) I think that was my first taste of hurting with her and wanting to protect her from emotional pain, even though it was a simple goodbye and she was over it quickly.
* Even more trivial, but we attended a party this weekend for a 4-year old, and Lily had a great time playing with the older kids and chasing them around. As they sat down to eat their dinner, I couldn’t get over how much older she seemed sitting with them at the kids table, and staying in her seat to eat her food. More tears.
As I was processing the vulnerable emotional state I’ve been experiencing, Jared reminded me that we are in the middle of an adjustment to a new home/culture/city. It was all so easy at first, but I think the transition is now sinking in on a deeper level. Overall, it’s still been a very easy move, but I guess I’m finally letting my emotions catch up and am grieving the goodbye to our life in Ithaca.